All the medication I was put on from the accident I'm almost off. All those anti-anxiety medications, and anti-depressants for anxiety, post traumatic stress disorder, depression. I am off finally the worst of the two. That has taken 2 months to titrate off. Well they are both really bad meds.
Medication Number 1. Effexor XR 300 mg's. That to me was the worst medication. It made me numb literally. I was numbed from emotion i.e. crying when I was hurt, laughter when something was fun, love to all my family and friends, being angry for a normal reason. It also caused Tachycardia with me.
I had terrible rage all the time I had no idea it was this medication. The worst it was causing me to become Agoraphobic. I didn't want to leave the house because, " I didn't feel like it " in turn I felt very anxious inside, no self confidence. In turn I ended up hating myself so much. I became miserable.
This medication made my brain produce to much Serotonin so much, that it seemed to block the brain receptors from accepting feel good transmitters. ( i.e. Dopamine and Epinephrine
The first titrated dose, my mind started to clear, I had emotion. The next titrated dose I felt so much at once. However, to me it wasn't a bad thing. I could make my own decisions. It just got better without this stuff.
I took my last dose yesterday 09/19/2011. I was at the point where I was breaking the capsule in half and counting beads that flew out of the capsule's after opening it. I had to do that to make the last dose of 37.5. I thought forget this... This is a pain. So, I stopped. It was the last dose before I was off. I feel weird but in a few days I know I will feel normal again.
Medication # 2 Klonopin ( generic Clonazepam) ( drug class: benzodiazepine ) this medication is a stimulant I had started taking a small dose 21 years ago. I was taking .5 mg. Well that was increased to 2mgs a 1.5 jump. for anxiety after the accident. I always wanted to get off this medication I hated taking it. But I was afraid because the doctor always warned me about the horrible withdrawal.. My mind was not addicted to it. My body was. My doctor told me to take 1mg ( chop in half ). That was a horrible withdrawal. It was painful and exhausting. I am on 1 mg now. However, the next drop is September 29th, 2011. I'm going to titrate off of it slowly on just dropping to .75mg. Then in 3 weeks dropping to .5 and so on till I am off the medication. ( I have to do it slow, I was in bed for 5 days going through hell when chopped in halves, I felt like a street drug addict going through a heroin withdrawal or something like that. Fact is I'm not. I was prescribed this medication
I took another Neuropsychologial Test and found out I have ADHD. I have had it all of my life. I brought old report cards and everything to the test. My whole family did the test. My Mom, both of my brothers and 2 of my nephews we all have ADHD. It is genetic.
I was put on my first dose of Wellbutrin XL 11 days ago 09/09/2011 I felt better in probably 4 days. I could focus, organize, routine myself , I remember stuff. I feel much better about myself. I want to go out and do everything. It worked. Again my dosage will be probably increased a little more. Eventually after getting off of Klonipin. I will then be prescribed Concerta in a very small dose 2 times a day.
You can say I'm sick of feeling withdrawal. Which is a natural feeling. My body is so tired.
Thats what I have been up to for 2 months. Its the best decision I have made ever to get off this crap. I know I have to watch out with this new stuff as well for ADHD.
I just want to warn others now. When you are prescribed a medication for anything ask you doctor a million questions and research it. Especially with these anti-depressants. Its your body. Your in charge of what goes in it. Just make sure you know everything first.
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